A bit of a salvation story.

I have really lost ALL reasoning for my blogging except to declare to you that JESUS IS KING. There is NO other way! He is salvation, He is every breath, He is living water.
Praise to the KING!

I stand amazed at the way God has changed my life and my heart. He has filled me up. IT IS UNDESCRIBABLE. I am so excited.
JESUS IS EVERYTHING. I AM NOTHING.
I HAVE DONE NOTHING TO DESERVE THIS MERCY,
THIS HEALING, THIS GRACE, THIS LOVE
I deserve NOTHING. and yet he died for me... for me. and he died for you.
I was once dead, but I am now ALIVE in Jesus Christ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He gave it all away for me!
HE IS
MY STRENGTH
SHEPARD
KING OF KINGS
MY PLANS
MY DREAMS
MY SAVIOR
REDEEMER
FATHER
LORD OF LORDS
MIGHTY GOD
EMMANUEL
LAMB OF GOD
CREATOR
ALPHA
OMEGA
PRINCE OF PEACE
BEGINNING AND END
GLORIOUS
TRIUMPHANT
GRACE
LIFE
FRIEND
Everything,
There is no way to say to you what my King has done for me, it is so big, so amazing, he is so divine. What else is there?
NOTHING

I am beginning to realize that all of my posts are looking remarkably alike. But when I go to blog it is all I can think about. God loves me, He created everything in the heavens and earth... and he loves me. Not only does he love me, but he died for me.

I just want to give my entire life to him, and when I type this it is being revealed to me that... it is much easier to say that I want to give everything to Jesus, but doing it is so tough. I am guilty of many times saying Lord take it all... but let me hold on to the reigns
with this a LITTLE longer... after it ends the way I wanted it to, you can have it. But NO his ways are so far above mine. How can I possibly think that anything in my own power would better my life, I have learned that does not work.

I have been in a couple relationships for lack of better way to say this, they were not in the will of God, at least towards the end. Well, they were some of those things I clung to. I said God take it all just not this. I was so wrong, I heard God speaking to me; even as messed up as I was at the times God was saying "Christi, stop I am right here, you do not need that reassurance from him. He will never complete you the way that I can. Christi, I have so much better plans for you."
Jeremiah 29:11-13 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
The reason I quote this is when I was going through a hard time and someone gave me this verse and it was a confirmation for me of what God was saying.

Even with all these things running through my head, I couldn't let it go. I was to selfish or spiritually immature. Mostly both. Apparently I am the type of person who needs to be shaken so hard to realize what God was doing in my life. Who knew that would happen in a jail cell? Of all places for me to be, that is where I ended up. The funny thing is those 3 days I was in the Detention Center, God changed me. My heart melted. I had always loved him and known deep down that he was right, but I had never said GOD TAKE IT ALL. The first night I cried, I prayed and I know the presence of God was with me, he carried me through. When I woke up
that morning I was a completely different person. I had something within me that had never been there before. God had filled me up and I felt him living in ME! I felt forgiveness. I was joyful, yes in a detention center. I was the happiest I'd ever been in my life. Praise God!

After I was released from there, I had to live with my grandma for 2 weeks. She worked a lot, so I was alone most of the time. This was the time when God transformed my life. He gave me a passion for him, and he loved me. Everyone began to notice a change in me. When I went back home my family was overjoyed to see how much I had grown. I also had a new appreciation for everything my mom has done raising us kids. I saw how hard it was for her to maintain a household, make meals, home school three children, and care for each of our social needs and immaturities. She is truly a woman filled with God's Holy Spirit. I love my parents. They sacrificed so much for me. Not only me, but for God. They have given there lives over to him so completely. They are such a wonderful example and role models for my brothers and myself. I am so thankful.

As for the husband thing that I mentioned in one of my first blogs, God has his hand on that. Never before have I been able to say that. But, I have given control to him and well, he has surpassed all human expectations.

I wanted to type out the pinpoint at where I can say I really allowed God to step in and change me, where all this fire for him is coming from. At risk of being severely criticized by others who knew me before all this happened. There you have it. It is meant to show you where I have come from and where Jesus has taken me. I was a broken person. I was the lowest of lows and God raised me up, he brushed the dirt off me, and he said this is my child who I delight in. I will never be the same.

Although I write today with a lot of spiritual development ahead of me, I know God will continue to work with me, teach me, give me new revelations, and LOVE me.

Jesus be glorified through this!